This semester has yet again revealed itself to be another filled with chipping away at the top of the mountain in attempt to learn more about myself and grow closer to God.
An interesting question that resonated very deeply with my heart about a week ago in one of my classes was one that a great mentor to my mentors asked himself once: what kind of man does God want him to be?
It made me ask myself what kind of woman does God want me to be? Instead of words, various images have been popping up in my mind in my (brief) moments of meditation these days.
A woman willing to step in and take the bullet for her friends - a woman willing to sacrifice anything for love.
A woman willing to step up and be honest - a woman willing to be broken in order to be healed and reveal God's strength.
A woman willing to make the decision in moments of indecisiveness as I journey with my brothers and sisters - a woman willing to be a leader and a servant for God.
A woman willing to see her holiness and dwell in the mud - a woman of both Heaven and Earth, digging through the mess of our humanity and reveling in all it's beautiful chaos with her brothers and sisters.
As I continue through the semester, this is something that I will reflect on time and time again in my heart. It gets difficult, because images of other things that the world tells me I 'should' be keep trying to intrude and pervade the dream but I quiet my heart and open my eyes and it's always right there in front of me.
What kind of man/woman does God want you to be? Forget all the images that we try to piece together from the onslaught of what the world tells us we 'should' be and open your heart. It might be more that you're expecting... actually, I guarantee that person is more than you could ever imagine yourself as.
So, what does God want you to be?
